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Remembering the Civil War

Poetry in Place 2018
PiP 2018

Remembering the Civil War

At our first Poetry in Place event of 2018, students journeyed through the Civil War Museum in Harrisburg before settling in for an afternoon of poetry. The students recounted their morning among history, where the stories of slavery and war took form before their eyes. They recalled the restrictive devices used on slaves or the gruesome medical operations soldiers had to endure. Local poet Maria James-Thiaw guided them in reflection as they bore witness to those events through their poetry. In the course of an hour, history was reborn through their poetry, and transformed as it interacted with their experiences.

 

Read Their Poems Below!

Women, women, women

 

The strongest of them all

 

Nurses, teachers, sisters,

mothers standing strong

through it all

 

Brave and mighty

Disguised as men

Fought in battle

10 by 10

 

1 by 1 with a gun

ready to take this

challenge on

Leaving behind family

and almost ready cry

 

Almost ready to cry,

Ready to die

fighting in the war.

with tears in our eyes

 

Fear and worry

As no one was feeling sorry.

Free is what you will be

250, 350, 850, sold

as the family wasn’t told.

All the slaves want is to be

Free!

And free is what they one day will be.

All these white people standing in the way:

as the slaves get no say

 

The mothers were worried about their children,

so, they buried their feelings inside.

As their children were gone,

they were left behind to cry

 

The chains can separate them but never break them.

As their hope will never die

the whips and chains will define,

as the wounds heal into a scar,

their story of the unfair auction will take them far.

Why?

Why must you torture us, laugh at our agony, and harm us with your piercing slurs?

Why must you make us feel like we’re nothing, as if we were all mistakes and are a disruption and a threat to your world and your faith?

You claim you’re of Jesus, a man who is the prince of peace,

But your claims are false and you look mighty ignorant because everything you stand for is a huge pillar of hate...evil...cruelty...pain...and lies

How do you sleep at night?

Have you ever tried to walk a mile in our shoes? Do you ever think of what it’s like from our perspective?

To be beaten and tortured if you even breath the wrong way.

To be called hurtful names and be automatically labeled as something you’re not.

To be so depressed that you’re praying and begging God to kill you

And feeling so helpless that you have to use disguised hope as a safety blanket?

Just to make things worse what about being hanged, or physically abused, thrown in hot boxes, being forced to fight for amusement and so many more cruel things...

But we’re dumb, stupid, ignorant, right?  We’re all these other things just because we want to be free?

 

Wow…

 

But no matter how much we speak nothing changes...

You use your devices and tools to latch us up

like we’re savages, like you don’t want us to stand up for greater things because your guilt is telling you to keep your mouth shut

What sense does that make?...

What is my bloodshed worth to you?...

If you like the shed of my blood then why not take yours too

We bleed the same blood either way, everyone does no matter the race or any difference between you and another person...

So what sense does that make?

 

That’s our perspective

There were lots of weapons there

Were daggers, muskets cannons. They

Fought with their weapons and fought

hard. There were so much blood and violence.

It didn’t last for long.

they were fighting,

violence, all out war,

 Soldiers had families,

and some died, and their families were sad,

to have loved ones in war,

children in war,

The museum was all a circle,

Inside there were many important things that changed how it is today,

The civil war played a big part in how things are now,

how time passed, learning about the outcome of war,

how it went,

we were looking at all the weapons,

what they used to fight the war

was displayed,

how they used it,

sabers, guns, canons,

the museum showed which people used the weapons

beside them, the person that used them,

some were in crates, many were on display hooks,

you can lay the swords down and put where your weapon is.

As we stand on the pole

Fear was coming near me

like a hungry predator

I hear them say “give us the strongest one.”

My chest

begins to pound.

I see

my son frown.

As I scan,

I see,

one thin,

one fat,

one skinny--I say that my son is

the strongest one.

I realize that this isn’t a game.

If I was a slave I would cry for days

Whoopings, clothing, and work had me in a maze

Imagining the food I would have ate

I get curious as I’m passing the prison gate.

My master pulled us out one by one

By the looks of this place I could tell it would not be fun

I’m looking around for my elderly mother

But all I see is my older brother.

“Move your horses little girl,” a scary man said

As he was pulling a boy by his huge head.

They took the boy into the prison-like building

Then inside I felt an angry feeling

I was taken from behind by my arms.

By this time I knew I was in harm.

 

As I entered, I saw a different group leaving.

I looked straight across and saw my mother grieving.

“Mommy!” I cried in a loud voice

I ran towards her because I felt I had no choice.

I was chased by more than five men.

I thought to myself, Not this again.

I did not want to be separated from my mother.

The men were pulling them one after the other.

Witnessing my mother leave

I couldn’t help but to weep.

 

We were all assigned a position in line.

We were told not to waste any time.

Numbers being called out is all I hear,

Fingers being pointed here and there.

“She’s about 5’3, maybe 13.”

Now I definitely knew they were talking about me.

“Sold! 350.”

My life was changing forever…

 

Having thoughts of being that girl,

My life would be in a swirl.

Feeling powerless and depressed, I would still struggle for freedom.

Compared to then, I’m living in a kingdom.

I take my life for granted,

Everything to me was handed.

I apologize for not acknowledging your pain,

And now learning from you I have much to gain.

(They fought)

--  for us

To live together

With no one left out.

 

The warmth of the campfire rubbing

on our skin

like a sauna on high steam

the wind pushing on our faces

like getting slapped with a pillow.

We are waiting for our next fight,

while the fight is waiting for us.

I know we can

win, we can win, we can win...we...can...win

 

The fight is about to begin--

soldiers get ready.

The other team is looking scared,

man’s not so steady.

 

The others fighting and yelling about our next plan

while most will not see the next time we stand,  

the glory of winning stands in our hand.

We can win, we can win, we can win.

While men fall they see no more,

like a guy in the DARK

without the light

not knowing.

Blood drips like Koolaid half full.

When right and wrong

is apart there must be a

battle.

My son and I are in a truck

Waiting to see what’s next.

I’m praying and wishing that our

Life is up for the best.

 

They yell at us and push us

Out the truck. And I’m just hoping

For good luck.

 

My son is crying and I’m crying

Too. Both of us know there’s nothing

We can do.

 

I can tell in my son’s face that he

Hates the master. But I can’t blame

Him he is a dirty bastard.

 

We see other men at the

House looking and smiling at my son.

And I can feel something in my heart that says something has to be done.

 

I dream a world where bullies are not bullies.